down, down at the bottom children u_u
The death of an Otaku, I’m quitting.

Okay guys... I’m being totally serious when and am quite sad.

I’m quitting Utako my Deviantart account.

I mean, I don’t think I’ll delete any art but this means a discontinue to any Deviantations and sadly the end of Now In An Instant… Common! I mean, you must have other things to do with you time other than read my grammar-missing writing! So I am sorry my dear Twin Tailed friend… doesn’t bother with the edit.

I am sorry to say this, but, I really have no other choice. I don’t even know what I am doing with my life… but I found that Otaku was going nowhere fast; the only resolve was to kill her  I know, it sounds emo but I suppose it’s true. I have done too many wrong things and abused her name and honor; no name deserved the history that I have created. My morals are becoming clearer and this does not seem to be the right way, I have been warned. Regardless, let me say this:

There is nothing wrong with yaoi, gay, or lesbian folk. I accept and enjoy this concept as I would a girl and a guy. Yes, I find yaoi enjoyable but I think I have mistreated it in my acts of selfishness. Don’t get me wrong, I think I shall love and enjoy it forever; I’ll just be more privet about it. Ahhh, it pains me to say this as recently I have FINALLY accomplished a perfect AkuRoku art piece…. Btu sadly I won’t be posting  However, there is one or two more pieces I plan on submitting but after that, I shall find another occupation for my time.

Bottom line, I love all you guys, you have boosted my confidence excitingly, I wish you all well in life but now I am being called and I fear I must go.
Much love

RIP Utako


----5 months later----

EDIT: Oh god, I can't believe I am doing this! -such an idiot-
well, since I stopped using Utako I have indeed moved on. However, every so often I check and since no one seems to get that I've quiet.... in not continuing any fics of art; every time I get another "Omg I love this keep it up comment" I really do feel ripped apart. DON'T get me wrong, I love the comments, however I wish they were better spent on someone less incompetent than me. Soooooooooo *sigh* I suppose I can only be subscribed as narcissistic in putting this up, and I suposed I should get to the bottom line.
Bottom line:

EVERY time I ever look at all the utter SHIT i posted here, I feel sick, so none the less I am going though my art on this account and well, deleting most of it (or, I hope to)and some day (if I can find the right button) I'll try and delete this account forever so that none of my stupidity ever happened.
don't get me wrong cause I KNOW what your thinking. I did and do NOT regret anything I've posted... however, I really did SUCK as an amateur artist and (I suppose) as an UtakoYeow AS well, further more, I've just moved on....

Light
[x] You have a big aim in life
[x] You hate to lose
[] You feel that your eyes change colors with your behavior
[] You are obsessed.
[] Your intelligence is superior in comparison with another person’s.
[] You don’t mind hurting others as long it helps you to get to your aims.
[] You have talent to seduce the opposite gender lol
Total: 2

L
[x] You love candy
[] You don’t care about how you look
[] You walk/ sit curved (my computer chair)
[] You are a genius
[] You have dark circles around your eyes (i never sleep)
[] You are very thin no matter what you eat
[] You don’t have many friends and you are a total failure at love
Total: 1

Misa
[] You love someone blindly
[] You would do everything for that ‘someone’
[x] You dress in a very peculiar way
[] You can’t tell when people are joking around with you
[x] You can’t handle alcohol very well
[] You are very jealous
[] You can make people do what they don’t want to do.
Total: 2

Mello
[x] You love chocolate
[] You were confused at least for once with the opposite gender
[] You always dress dark and tight clothes
[] You are always second
[] You have a burn/ scar on your face
[x] You are very intelligent, but sometimes you make mistakes
[] Near creeps you out a little bit
Total: 1

Matt
[x] You are always playing videogames
[] You smoke
[] You wear streaky shirts
[x] You would do anything for your friends
[] You use glasses that look like goggles
[x] You are always relaxed
[x] You are very affectionate to your best friend
Total: 4

Near
[x] You are patient to the limit
[] You always win
[] You have Peter Pan syndrome
[] You love to wear pajamas always wear pajamas
[] You are very intelligent
[x] You have a lot of ability using your hands
[] Your hair is of a weird color
Total: 2

Mikami
[] You believe in a god
[] You search for justice in everywhere
[x] You use glasses
[x] You are/ want to be a lawyer
[] You don’t care about following orders as long as it’s for justice’s sake
[] You support Kira unconditionally
[x] All your life is perfectly planned
Total: 3

Ryuk
[] You love apples
[x] You are bored
[x] You think that humans are… INTERESTING!
[] You laugh in a weird way… Hyuk, hyuk, hyuk…
[] You don’t let your feelings lead you
[] When there’ s an argument, you never take one of the sides
[x] You are a little bit crazy and weird
Total: 3

Matsuda
[] Some people think that you are an idiot
[x] You always see someone’s good side
[x] You know someone who is an example for you
[x] You don’t think Kira is neither good or evil
[] You talk about a love life that you don’t have
[x] You do stupid things that sometimes are good to the ones around you
[] You are pretty, but old.
Total: 3


omg, I'm Matt... lol.....>w<

Anyways, srry I haven't been on or replying for a while..... see, I have this thing called a social life and... if kinda needs a lot of attention. Like a dog, grooming and feeding, on and on. I will try and update some day or another

Utako

Here's my lame attempt at a challenge! Just for fun I want to see how many people do this so please do it. It'll make people feel good! ...I hope. It might just make them feel stalked...

Rules:
Be nice!
No prejudice please!
Be open!
Have FUN!

Description:
Basically just make a list of people you watch that have at least talked to you a couple times and say why you think they're awesome. Hopefully this will get sent around enough that everyone will be given a small description at least once. Inside jokes are allowed and encouraged!

Yeow: Start with the ones you know! (buts thats just Yeows rule)

---------------------- Even though she's never -------------------------------------------------on she my right hand, -------------------------------------------------go-to girl in the real -------------------------------------------------world ans she will do -------------------------------------------------great things yaoi or not.

--------------------------Cause we can be totally -------------------------------------------------weird together and not -------------------------------------------------care if ppl stare. My -------------------------------------------------editor And she makes -------------------------------------------------awesome lyrics.

------------------------------Because she introduced --------------------------------------------------me to Kingdom Hearts --------------------------------------------------and the wondrous world --------------------------------------------------of weirdness. She's --------------------------------------------------pure, up front and says --------------------------------------------------what she thinks weather --------------------------------------------------I like it or not.

--------------------------------She was my first friend --------------------------------------------------on DA who stumbled --------------------------------------------------across my art. Always --------------------------------------------------supportive form way --------------------------------------------------back when there was --------------------------------------------------'Hey there Roxas'. --------------------------------------------------Awesome art, a tablet --------------------------------------------------wonder!

-------------------------------My partner in crime and --------------------------------------------------my Yaoi RP friend. Were --------------------------------------------------both insane cats with a --------------------------------------------------craze for Reno and --------------------------------------------------Yazoo (tee hee) Collabs --------------------------------------------------with our 'Impressions' -------------------------------------------------series.

--------------------------------Usted esta bueno amigo --------------------------------------------------con mio, yo amor el --------------------------------------------------pictures y el esta bueno --------------------------------------------------humar, moi, moi --------------------------------------------------taleante! yo no --------------------------------------------------comprend Espanol, --------------------------------------------------talvez usted comprendo --------------------------------------------------mio................talvez!

-------------------------------A wonderful artist who ---------------------------------------------------I've had the privilege ---------------------------------------------------of working on a piece ---------------------------------------------------with. Funny and can ---------------------------------------------------work wonders with the ---------------------------------------------------simplest tools.

------------------------------------Cause she's hilarious --------------------------------------------------and edgy! She is my --------------------------------------------------AkuRoku god, her art is ---------------------------------------------------making and shes --------------------------------------------------the reason for so many --------------------------------------------------laughs and drools I've --------------------------------------------------endured.

-------------------------------Even though she doesn't --------------------------------------------------always reply she does --------------------------------------------------such beautiful art, her --------------------------------------------------comics art so awesome --------------------------------------------------and she's real.

---------------------------------There photography is --------------------------------------------------absolutely breath taking --------------------------------------------------and beautiful. Though --------------------------------------------------they never reply I see --------------------------------------------------them as photo gods!!!!

-------------------------------I had to because 'The --------------------------------------------------Taste' was the first --------------------------------------------------SasuNar I read and if it --------------------------------------------------hadn't been for Asuka, --------------------------------------------------my Yaoi horizon might --------------------------------------------------be limited. I still --------------------------------------------------continue to adore her --------------------------------------------------work!

Well my hand has crapmed to the extent of major pain so, I'd like to thank everyone else who had me and who have supported me. I thank all who I watch for producing such awesomeness and beauty!

Now, TAG 3 PEOPLE!!!!







In other news:
The cat was up late last night and has finished the four pages if smut NIAI now has. WOOT, but me and B-chan are gonna improve it, and look up synonyms for words, I want that ch, to be powerful. Oh and, I don't think I can see my editor today so we might have to wait till next weekend.... I'M SORRY! I really am, well, I'll see what I can do with the unedited ch. at least. Try and make her job eisier. Well, thats all for now.

~Utako

Well, I have looked at my calender.... and I am horribly saddened to see that I haven't submitted any NIAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am REALLY SORRY! I know you guys wait and I am truly grateful for that I feel as if I am abusing this privilege! Well, Here the thing;
I also know I must drive you guys insane wit ma horid spelin! So, I got a close friend to be my editor. Well she is on the other side of town for me and in different places, sells herself on a different street then I do! *is shot* ya ya, I'll stop there, but you get the point right? Well, life is getting its god damn ass in the way so I haven't been able to reach her. But I PROMISE (even if it kills me... no really) I WILL get the next ch.



~Utako

Btw. The cat is now an intermediate fencer!!!!!